Thursday, November 5, 2009

a diet coke kind of day.


[mom, don't judge me for drinking caffeine].

it was just one of those days...

you know what i'm talking about.

it was the kind of day that just didn't get off to the right start. you get up much later than you had planned, because the night before was terrible. and the last thing you want to do is get out of your warm bed and face the day ahead of you.

but you do.

and you put your pink robe over your pajamas, slip on your uggs, and make cinnamon rolls for your group project meeting. only your cinnamon rolls don't rise. of course they don't. and they're dense and gross and your frosting has chunks of cream cheese that won't smooth out.

and then it's time for school. and you spend 4-ish hours in the basement of a school building with no cell phone service and all you accomplish is getting your pattern cut out and a wimpy pocket sewn on. 

and there was probably 100 moments in the day where your eyes just started to well up with tears, without any provoking at all. and it takes every ounce of your self-control to keep those tears from falling. and all day long you wonder if last night you made a huge mistake, and all you can do is hope and pray that everything will just work out.

you make it home. to an empty apartment. because apparently your roommates have lives.

so you decided to change out of the sweats and tennis shoes you wore to school, and you get cute. because that should make you feel better. only you swear that last week you were so excited about the 5 pounds you lost, and today they all decided to come back.

but hey, at least now you're wearing mascara and you smell nice, so you decide to be supportive of a friend and go to his comedy show. only you drive all the way across town to find out you went to the wrong place. 

and that's when you need a diet coke. in the worst way.

thank goodness for the crest gas station's drive through and $1.10 refills.

5 left some love.:

Lindsay November 6, 2009 at 6:51 AM  

Awww. Poor jana! I know exactly how you feel. I have those days, quite often actually. Being a single mom to a 3 year old is so hard, and somedays you just want to pack up and leave and run off to a remote island, but you know you never will. You just have to keep on, keeping on. Lots of prayer, hugs, and support from friends helps, too!
Keep your chin up, girlie. Everything will work itself out.
And hey, a diet coke every now and then isn't too bad. At least your escape isn't a Hot Mint Vanilla Mocha with a shot of espresso... or two. :)

MaryBeth Hughes November 6, 2009 at 7:21 AM  

hi jana. i was looking for a delicious pumpkin cupcake and was so glad to find your post from the other day. just beautiful!!

i gave you a shout out on my blog. you can check it out here:

have a sweet weekend!

Beck Family November 6, 2009 at 7:50 AM  

Yep! We all have those days. But I've decided you need a few horrible days to really enjoy and appreciate a good one. Its a part of life. So you have to keep your chin up and look forward to a better, happier day. They always come. The best cure to sadness is gratitude. Find some awesome things around you to be grateful for and that will help cheer you up. For one thing you can be grateful that in just a week you'll be here with us and you'll have three little boys with their arms wrapped around you fighting for your attention. I might be in on that hug too. Love you lots!

Natalie November 6, 2009 at 9:19 AM  

I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels better when I'm wearing mascara and I smell nice :) Hope things work out. I'm excited to meet you next weekend!

Jessica November 6, 2009 at 9:58 AM  

Feel better! I really do love your blog. Just in case you didn't get my email (i just didn't get a response so I didn't know) i am way excited for you to take pictures of our little guy when he comes. Thank!